A Broken Heart…

Hey guys,

So you may ultimately be thinking of why I am posting this and honestly this has been such a hard post to write.

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Recently having broken up from my (ex) boyfriend I have learnt a lot about myself including things I didn’t know before. I found it extremely difficult to deal with this breakup as it was my first, so I’m not gonna be petty and blame people on here and say exactly why we broke up but I thought this post may help some people who are either going through this or if you know someone who is.

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One thing that I’ve learnt is vital is to rekindle hobbies that you love. For example with me I’ve kept going with my YouTube channel, restarted my passion for music and getting into photography more. All these photos on here have been taken by me and I’m really pleased with my progress in photography!

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Another thing that I found really difficult was learning was being happy by myself. Which I do feel like I am, and I’m proud to say that! Some people can find it really difficult being happy by themselves especially if they’ve been reliant on other people for it!

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Another thing to mention is that being alone isn’t a bad thing. Sometimes it’s just what you need. I know at the start of a breakup (for me anyway) it felt like the worst possible thing that had happened and I was never going to be happy by myself. But honestly it just takes time. Time can heal almost anything. With the situation I was in also really knocked my self confidence and my self worth. This is another thing I have had to learn and it probably one of the most important things to learn. If you can’t be happy by yourself/ love yourself how do you expect that with another person?


Screen Shot 2018-01-21 at 22.55.16So this post was a sort of life update and helpful (hopefully) post in a way.  But to lighten the mood before I end this post I wanted to end it saying 5 things that have happened which are amazing and I am super pleased with myself about!

1 – I hit 1K on Youtube and Im almost at 1.2 K so if you haven’t subscribed go and do so please it means so much to me!!

2 – I got into a danish exchange for my nursing degree which is coming up soon!

3 – I started running more and properly in order to prep for my half, so I completed my first 10 mile run the other day!

4 – Ive improved on my photography skills ( i think haha!)

5 – Im okay and Im happy with myself and the life Im living.


Stay happy

Lucy x


2018 Goals And 2017 Reflections…

So we made it? 2018. And I just felt like I was getting used to 2017. Last year I did this post so I thought we could see If I actually took my own advice (probably not) and lets see how 2017 actually turned out. Then I can let you all know my new goals for 2018.

So in 2017 I set out these goals:

  1.  To be healthier and happier
  2. To work hard
  3. Be helpful and kind
  4. Get fit
  5. Take things slowly and appreciate life more

So looking back at my goals I don’t think I did too badly. I mean I haven’t been the healthiest ever but I’ve not been the unhealthiest… maybe this is gonna be a goal for 2018 instead! I worked hard and managed to get through my 1st year of Nursing at University, which I am super proud of because doing this course isn’t just mentally draining it also gets physically draining as doing 12.5 hour shifts 3 times a week almost leads you to have no social life which is why a lot of people go to University to start with, the social aspect. But I do it because I do love the job and it is so rewarding.  Being helpful and kind goes into my job as a HCA and as a Nursing student. Now the get fit part… hmmm well I mean I’ve become better at running and ran my first 8 miles by myself the other week so I am very pleased with my progress in running, but I am yet to have formed abs… I have however taken things a lot slower this year and even though 2017 still went extremely fast I have so many amazing memories of the year! Here are just a few of the most amazing things I got to do this year!

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January – I joined the gym and worked really hard (for the first month…).

February – I went brunette, which I haven’t been for ages, about 3 years!!

March –  I had an amazing learning opportunity working with the community nurses who do so much!

April – I started my Youtube Channel! And also changed my hair again I wasn’t keen on the brown!

May – I started to run again!

June – I turned 19, whoop another year older!

July – I completed the end of my first year as a student Nurse!

August – I went to Venice for a wedding which was amazing!

September – I started my second year of nursing off with a bang!

October – Im super proud of all the halloween looks I created on my Youtube channel!

November – Bit of a sad one, but as this was a tough month for me getting through the month and days was an achievement in itself and Im proud to say Im still here!

December – I had the sweetest christmas with my family, my bunny made it through Christmas day but unfortunately did not make it through to the new year. RIP Ellie 29/12/17.

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So in order to start a fresh for the new year creating goals is a good way to be the new you.

So like last years post on my previous blog to here on WordPress, Im creating 5 goals for myself to try and achieve and maintain throughout 2018.

  1. I would love to feel more confident in my own skin and be happy with myself. I know this is similar to one of my goals last year but still It Is something I have always struggled with so would like to really try.
  2. Eat more natural and unprocessed foods. I know this one is stemming along the line of food and health much like last year, but instead of forcing myself to only eat a certain amount of calories each day eating a healthier range of foods tends to uplift my mood and so this is why it is yet another goal of mine as this should help me more with my anxiety that I have been struggling with. If I am able to control something It calms me down so the food I intake and really looking after my body and the nutrients that I put in will hopefully help with that.
  3. Improve on my running and keep going with it. With me running the Half Marathon in February I will still be running throughout till then, but I would love to continue running and perhaps even be able to complete a whole Marathon one day.
  4. Get to grips with my anxiety. This may seem a little personal but having struggled a lot lately Ive had to kick my butt into action and say enough is enough. Im fed up with being so anxious all the time and just want to be able to do things that sometimes I don’t have the confidence to do. We only get one life and I don’t want to be stuck behind just because Im too afraid or because I feel like I’m not good enough. I think by exercising and eating well I can hopefully manage this better, I would also like to try mindfulness as this has proven to help a lot of people like me too.
  5. Take every opportunity I can get. So at the age of 19 I still want to live my life to the fullest and of course sometimes I have my set backs and struggle on a normal day. So with life steaming along so fast I need to try everything I want to while I still can and live everyday like its my last. I know it may sound slightly morbid to some of you, but with the job Im in and what Im studying It really does make you feel like you need to live your life and be as happy as you can whilst you can do it! Because in life there are good moments and bad moments, whenever my time comes to go I would want to look back at my life and be happy with what I have achieved no matter what age I may be.

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I realise this has been a long post, but I hope that you all have had the most wonderful new year and celebrated it with a bang! Here’s to 2018!

Stay happy and be yourself,

Love Lucy x